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Anna's Semi-Cool List of Halloween Movies-opinions???

, myspace is starting to suck balls. I cant really express my opinions there, plus only one chick from high school is even listening  to briarcrest high school--that i found out he was "in love" with our groups resident dyke--he didnt know she was gay--but she made my life hell.. hiding it.. and saying, I WAS GAY.. which im not..  The point is, he didnt like that, and took me off his friends list or whatever..  So, looks like im back here.. to be able to write what i truely feel....

Also, To whomever wrote me about hating someone named Neely Keltner.. I cant thank U enough. Im gonna write a response to U.. i hope u read it.. U made my day.. I just want u to know that..

Okay, now to my lame list of movies--Im going for (Scary) here not (gross)   So, even though Saw is one of my favorite movies, i have to leave it out. Also, I am grouping basically all of the Freddy, Jason and Hellraiser movies together. If i had to pick one series that was SCARY.. I would go with Hellraiser. Iwould love some OPINIONS on Anyone else's fav movies!

My Picks

1) House of 1000 corpses
2) Texas Chainsaw Remake of 2003--It gave me a dilusional paniac attack!
3) The Omen
4)  The Exorcist
5)  Rosemary's Baby
6)  The Shining
7)The Sixth Sense
8)Halloween--The original
9) Carrie-Steven King
10) Blair Witch-One

Well, what do U folks think?? HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!

 

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Relationship Hurts/This weekend/Photoconfessions.

Well I said goodbye to my psychiatrist whom I have had for about a year today, I got home from Livermore (about 40 miles each way) after driving with much anxiety in the pouring rain. So, no more DR. RICHARD OLSEN. He said I need to find someone else within a month (So, now i am not only looking for a therapist but a psychiatrist too!!)   Right now, i am vacuuming the cats room or the room that i share with the cats)  Then im going to the gym (but first im going to eat some candy)

Well I got back from my walk.. Paul went to the gym. We havent been having a good time AT ALL together lately. its really sucked.. Well (photoconfessions is paying me 400 dollars for the nude updates i sent them) I guess thats good.. Physically i still feel terrible. (oh i gotta go drink some laxative) Also, I am sending out FOR FREE! The DVD that I finally got from Marc Stevenson. (he is the fat fuck who I did that masturbation shoot with 5 months ago!! (why i am sending them out who knows) one person should have theirs and two more folks want one.

Paul and I dont even kiss anymore or hardly hold hands, i used to cuddle up next to him and he would read to me at night) i keep asking but he says no. we dont even cuddle up next to each other at night. I dreamed about DOING IT with John Denver last night (ha ha) plus the dream i have basically every night---VERY WEIRD! it always has my mom and some tiny helpless kittens (never fails if my mom is in the dream so are the kittens (dont know what that means probably nothing)

I think about things being like cuddley and all that bullshit (the way they were) I think about sex. and wish that I wanted to do it. (even if I do) it never works. paul will hit at a blowjob or something but thats it. I want what anyone whos been together FIVE FUCKING years wants, (the kind of sex where both people are all sweaty and stuck to each other) Just Fucking together. All that happens with us now is we make fun of each other, then one or both goes our seperate ways to the computer. (and now being clean or trying to stay clean its really a disaster for me cause i have to analize why things are the way they are with him. it hurts me, but theres no way to get that across to him.

 So even with me feeling like SHIT physically we went up to the mountains on Saturday night. Heres just an UGLY photo of me, just to say we were there.  (YEAH) REALLY FUCKING UGLY)  i know that so NO RUDE COMMENTS!  There was a blizzard and we were going to go sledding but we had to turn back. We turned back and went for a walk around Calavaras Big Trees State Park. (I made a travel video but havent finished it yet) Anyway, we went into the woods and found our own hill. It was surrounded by trees and shit that you could run into to.  Sadly one of our cameras broke so he wasnt able to capture my FACE PLANT into a tree basically!!   I didnt bring my helmet, and there was a turn that i couldnt hit so I went flying off the sled smashed my face in the snow.  (IT HURT) the fresh snow from the tree fell all over me-I got a burn on the left side of my face and I couldnt hear out of my left ear for hours.  (PAUL LAUGHED) !!!

I need to find a video and some lyrics real quick- ICed Earth is some death metal religious band that i discovered on youtube. This song is called Damien (duh) its about the rise of the antichrist. The chorus is straight from the bible (revelation)  It means when Isreal becomes a nation (that happened in 1948) (The comet, im not sure about) (The RE-RIse of the Roman empire)  the antichrist rises from (THE ETERNAL SEA) this means from MAN-from the mass of men on earth. (He will create wars-evil against christian) until evil (man) exists no more).... Bible prophecy is the only hope i have to get off of this earth SOON! and i believe in it.  BIG TIME! Im gonna put a youtube video with the song,.. but all i can find is animated songs!! i dont like the animation AT ALL, but i love the words!

2. Damien

[Music: Jon Schaffer / Lyrics: Jon Schaffer]

[Chorus]
When the Jews return to Zion
And a comet fills the sky
The Holy Roman Empire rises
And you and I must die
From the eternal sea he rises
Creating armies on either shore
Turning man against his brother
Till man exists no more
[spoken]
"Nazarene, what can you offer?
Since the hour you vomited forth
from the gaping womb of a woman,
you have done nothing but drown mens' soaring desires in a deluge of
sanctimonious morality.
I was conceived of a jackal.
Your pain on the cross was but a splinter
compared to the agony of my father.
I will drive deeper the thorns into your rancid carcass,
you profaner of Isis.
Cursed Nazarene, I will avenge thy torment."
Now Disciples of the Watch
See your Prince of Darkness rise
Through famine and destruction
The Four Horsemen at my side
I demand a victory, I demand a sacrifice
Or spend all eternityIn the flaccid gut of Christ!

[Chorus]
When the Jews return to Zion
And a comet fills the sky
The Holy Roman Empire rises
And you and I must die
From the eternal sea he rises
Creating armies on either shore
Turning man against his brother
Till man exists no more


So the beast resides in me
Deep down I always knew
I never really did fit in
So diverse from all of you
Let him who comprehends
Know the number of the beast
It's a number of a man
A number just for me
As the boy becomes a man
Father's minions pave the way
Set in motion now, Armageddon,
Final conflict, end of days
I embrace the hounds of hell
And the power they oblige
For the task that lies ahead
The Nazarene I'll crucify
They'll see the raptures of our kingdom
They'll see the truth to mankind
I'll show what hell truly is
The monotony of their lives

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Really cruddy (oh shit repost from myspace tonight) cottage cheese vag

Anyways Men, if u read, u probably wont ever have sex again!--THIS WAS 1 AM THIS MORNING

Well, this has been one hell of a crappy day,,,, the part that i was awake for, so right now I swallowed all my antidepressants plus a FIFTH MORPHINE ---which is way over what i am supposted to take.. I swallowed them all down with a FATTENING corona just now.. im still nursing it well, its a corona light..... anyways, i have been in a lot of vaginal pain for a while, so today i use the bathroom and what should appear but a glob of white crap. So, hmm how to make this not gross (dont think i can) anyway, i had had the white crap up the PUSSY!! problem a while back.

So, i went to my gyno Dr. Tsang. He said, it wasnt yeast but some buildup because i hadnt had a period in a while so, i figure, oh its the same thing.. NO.. so, i tried to make to homeade sorta douche thing to flush the chunky white stuff out. didnt work. so, i basically stuck my finger up MY PUSSY  and pulled out chunk after chunk.OF CHEESE.

now i am trying to sit at the computer, but i itch so bad, i can't hardly sit down..... See, otc yeast stuff like monistat is real bad for my PUSSY... it makes the chronic pain worse.. I need to take difulcan for it, but i can't wait that long.. this has been an onging horrible horrible uncomfortable incoviennce on my entire late 20's and now 30. it just wont stop.. i went in a hot tub at the hotel in Montery and i fucking new better. I mean for me. the wrong soap will cause a yeast infection, like i said the water in a hot tub.. Just anything. great Paul is back with the monistat---

now lets see if i have to go to the E/R for taking 150 mg of morphine with a beer.. oh and 60 mg of cymbalta, 50 of seroquel 6mg of klonopin. (i know i can survive if I take around 20mg of Klonopin) that is more than enough to kill someone--but i guess i have a tolerant liver.. LASTLY, no one here knows about my dead fathers journals.. i dont have much info in my livejournal about them either. but, i did get one today, and i realize i am gonna have to be really mentally strong to stomach a lot of this stuff... I mean i am only up to 1971 and he has already called my dead mother... (satan, drains the life out of the earth out of anything, hell bent on revenge, a ball of anxiety) well, there was more.. I am really loyal to my dead mom, more than i am my dead dad. i am thankful that he left these journals so i could find out why i am so depressed and why our family life was hell....

Well, it.ll go on.... P>S> my accountant told me a story that was true... one of his clients just had normal sex with his wife... however i suppose he also had oral sex because in about 3 or 4 days a bunch of white flecks started to appear in his beard. He sorta brushed it off, but it got worse and worse.. so he went to the doctor and the doctor told him it was a yeast infection from his wifes pussy!!!!!!!!!! TRUE!! hey, guys in the mood now??

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My love for firestarter 1984, jan 5, 07

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I AM CHARLIE...

mood: exhausted

Come and visit my erotic diary at Photoconfessions     Well, Firestarter 1984 is my fav. movie. I found this on YOUTUBE  (DUH)!!!!!   Someone from another country dubbed over the tangerine dream soundtrack with music from (AH NO, pirates from the carribean)    I loved this, LOVED it, was gonna marry it.. until i heard where the songs were from.
Anyway, for anyone who has no fucking clue what i mean when i say this is my favorite movie.. well??
Oh.. check these out. Firestarter IS and WAS a steven King book, someone on the net wrote these retarded lines down as favorites. they arent mine, just lines.  naw.. the point isn't that drew was a little pyro. i don't know, its me. its what i wanna do in heaven. if we get to do whatever we want.. YEAH..

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I AM CHARLIE...

mood: exhausted

Come and visit my erotic diary at Photoconfessions     Well, Firestarter 1984 is my fav. movie. I found this on YOUTUBE  (DUH)!!!!!   Someone from another country dubbed over the tangerine dream soundtrack with music from (AH NO, pirates from the carribean)    I loved this, LOVED it, was gonna marry it.. until i heard where the songs were from.
Anyway, for anyone who has no fucking clue what i mean when i say this is my favorite movie.. well??
Oh.. check these out. Firestarter IS and WAS a steven King book, someone on the net wrote these retarded lines down as favorites. they arent mine, just lines.  naw.. the point isn't that drew was a little pyro. i don't know, its me. its what i wanna do in heaven. if we get to do whatever we want.. YEAH..

Its beginning to look a lot like crap..

I don't have any fancy photos or crap for this entry. I just gotta say, i have not used  for around 4 days.. this is the longest i have gone in a while. but, it makes no difference. I just woke up from sleeping around 20  hours straight.  Why? don't know.. I had no Dex  in my system, but still i slept and slept. I am self medicating.. taking myself off welbutrin--i don't know.. why be clean, if i am just gonna sleep and sleep anyways.  Dec. 25.. huge disappoinment. hated it. the last time i used was christmas day.   Paul and i both had been depressed or sick or who the fuck cares (we both decided to buy each other crap this year)  perhaps it did hurt a little.  (he has offered no support of my few days clean.. he only acts like a fuck (because i have been sleeping all the time)   

I mean (what do you want for 07... drugs and activity of none and sleep.  So christmas day... i was high, for the last time... I finally did get to talk to Uncle Henry.. He called once at 11 our time and then he called back.. I was completley stoned, but i managed somehow through slurred speach to talk to him for probably an hour...   That was one of the few good things.. (he is my only family now) and he seems real interested in trying to have a relationship with me.. now that i am 30 and a half and he is 60..   Oh well, thank the creater for small favors. 

So, after i get off the phone with Henry.. I started noticing that Sydney did not look good at all.. She still fucking looks bad.. BUT, with sucj jstress and with no great support, i called the emergency vet who was open... it was 94 bucks for her just to be seen.. only christmas night.. I have to take her to the E/R vet.. Paniaced and still drugged out.. I noticed she was couging, i had not seen her eat at all.. She was making very odd sounds.. (which made me think she was dying now)    she was purrying when no one touched her.... which is a good sign that she was in a lot of pain... So i didn't know what to do..... finally, i brought her... It cost me over 300 dollars.. for the vet to tell me what we already knew.. she had bad bowels and her back was hurting her.. (and just take her to her regualr vet) 

Yeah.. thanks... There was no christmas eve service down at the little epispocal church... nothing.. Mostly, after the sydney deal, i have done nothing but sleep..    I gave paul a thing of astroglide for christmas... and i put a card that said   (hope for 2007)  it was a fucking joke, but he didn't laugh. 

So, I spent 200 bucks for some stupid last minute at fucking walgreens for him.... fuck.. and he spent relatively nothing.. he went only to pacific sun and bought me two pairs of FAT camelflouge pants.... They look exactly the same.. two pairs.. but at least they are huge enough to  wear... then he got me.. two shirts.. both pink which were also exactly the same!   WTF?  that was all. 

I wonder if, it isn't the drugs.. but something serious starting her in 2007.. i mean who in the hell sleeps this long... I want to think and hope it is extreme stress that will never go away.... I hurt all over too.   

I told Uncle Henry, i would try to go back to fucking trade school... i don't know..    every chrismas and new year is blown by me. i feel i am falling back in my paniac attacks.    I hurt from stress everywhere.   

Yeah, i do have an appointment with some fucking new quack on the jan 4th.. a therapist.. who cares.. 

So, that was my christmas...   

I tried to make it religious, to me.  I wanted to stay off drugs.. but it is so damn hard. 

oh, thanks chris for calling me chrismas eve... (Hey what was i doing then  SLEEPING!!!!!!!!!   
So I also miss taking my medication correctly when i sleep so much.... Paul won't bring me the meds like he always did before... I mean one tiny damn thing that might help.. Just bring me my correct medication so I won't miss it.. I am trying to stay clean..

what i am saying.. selfish.. selfish selfish.... 

Is there any way possibe.. for someone to understand this..... I said.. i need some crap from him to trust.. No... what I need is for my mother to be alive and living whereever the fuck she wants...   Hopefully in Memphis somewhere.. ANd when i get hurt and stressed to the end of it all.. I can just call... I can just call my mother. like a normal fucking person... That way, i know that whatever happens with gramps and me here,, i can always go home.. I can always ask my mom for help.   I don't want anything else but that.. ever.. i just wanna pick up the phone now and call her... and be like mom and i  this and this and this?????    I could just feel my stress go away.. 

Even, uncle henry, who i thought was not on my side at all.... mentioned again.. " I cannot understand what it is to lose both parents so young"   how it must be...... now this is a man.. who earlier could have cared less.. so i know.. i have moved someone who was once hard, to soft..
" />HERE U GO PAUL ITS UR CHRISTMAS PRESENT U ASS HOLE!

This Week In Food..and getting ousted from mental health site

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So,,, because of the weight deal.. I am trying really hard to diet this week... So,,, From Monday to Wednesday,, I am going to weigh myself on Sunday. I have (MOST PAINFULLY) DRAGGED my tortured ass BACK to the gym after a Long time.... I went Monday and I went Today... Yesterday, I slept for 11 hours straight.. I mean i was basically in a coma.. I did not get up to Pee or drink or anything.. Kinda creepy..
Anyways, ive been eating basically Oatmeal, Graham crackers, rice cakes, milk, last night I ate a frozen dinner...

So, I am using today.. I drank at about ah hour and a half ago.. so far nothing has happened.. If not.. i'll just drink the other bottle.. Nice sex experience Monday.. I woke Paul up at 3 am and i was high and i said i needed to be touched bad.. so unlike me..

Oh, i don't know if I even mentioned our thanksgiving... yeah this was our 3rd thanksgiving together. It was okay.. WE cooke our own turkey and potatoes and cranberry sause, PIE... . . UMMM PIE.......

SO, today, I went and spent 100 bucks on my SHORT SHORT hair again..... !!!!!!!!! it is BLACK with pink tips... yeah...

So... at the beginning of this week I was 126.. i hope i will be keeping up the rice cakes and crud.. til Sunday and make myself workout one more day this week.

Yeah.. that was boring... I am finding.. less and less things to do on the computer..
oh... well... i wasn't able to mention the entire social mental health deal.. it was an insane mess...  Basically, U know I have been posting there for a while and for some reason these folks wanted me out.  they would not listen to my side of the story (it was so stupid, it hardly had a story but anyways) It was like a little potpourri of crazies.  It started with a lady named jackique (she hid behind) wadelle.  privately e-mailed me. Hey, I thought she was sane?? go figure..
turns out shes a really overweight 56 year old with a collection of probably made up medical problems. she said she wanted to act as a surrogate mother?????        so..... i was like whatever..  so we sent a few e-mails....  Then.. I found out about dead journal.. where Jennifer with whom i had a problem with 4 months ago!   so i wrote comments... one was pussy something.          So Jennifer then goes to my surrogate mother (I wish I could roll my eyes)
they get together and compare notes on how horrible i am??????    Next thang I know,  I ask the insane surrogate if Jennifer could have gotten my IP addy.

so, all hell breaks loose on the board of the loons   http://social.realmentalhealth.com/magazine.php   insane surrogate said I had shit all over her honor?? by asking the question.      so then every bud of jennifer and the insane surrogate mother meet and start trashing me all over the board.  so.. around 10 hens banned me..    it was just stupid i dont even know why i mentioned it.    I guess cause  no one would let me talk or hear my side of the story,  classic case.. Anna is the doormat once again.. or well maybe not.. maybe those group of hens label me as the instigator.  and the insane surrogate gets to be the victim. but i am a victim too. words were said that were not true about me and that is not right. i did not get a chance to defend myself.. well the point is I searched long and HARD.. for something that might fit this situation,, so. i choose this as a Tribute to the folks who kicked me out of that site! And now i reckon this weird situation is over.. but... i am thinking that jennifer, wadelle, corne and MORE FOLKS! ALL look like the person on the right! yeah the person i fear most!! AAAAAAAAAAAAA i'll just read some others journals probably, cause my profile is still there. 

 

Strange happenings, um just weird thoughts, me bein a wide load

^{_{Too wierd...  Girl who has been a hermit for probably 2 weeks?  Goes to Walgreens, all by herself to get some stuff. (This is a big accomplishment for an agoraphobe)   Then actually goes for a walk!   more getting out of the house!   YAH! ME!  But, the walk was a strange walk..   I have my old walkman, and i wanted to listen to my mommies funeral to see if I could get some more information for her web page.    Picture it!!!      An agorophobe in blue yoga pants and a HAT to cover my terrible HAIR walkin down the street.. HIGH!!   I have never done that before... actually moved while high!   actually been outdoors.. so.. me and a funeral on the radio and it feels like i can JUMP! while i walk! I am totally weightless, i am also seeing some colors that should not be outdoors.  then well the funeral tape skips around a lot. so while i am weightless i can either get organ music or the beginning of the funeral..  well, maybe you had to be there. 
oh yeah, since i realized that i weigh 127 pounds..   (OMG)  i am watching blind date and the man says i want a girl who is emotionally needy!!!!)   okay that i really want to eat less, like a lot less.. problem cough syurp is damaging my organs, but HEY I DONT NEED TO EAT!!     and why are we worried about weight?    I don't know..  i am not really modeling at all...  but i soooo hate my body if i am nude. (this is the deal)  i will take off my clothes for a total stranger so that he/she can take pics of me.   and if i am a bit overweight---ah oh well.. but I NEVER TAKE MY CLOTHES OF FOR PAUL.  no sex, just like walking around the house nude,,, i never do it.. because i am ashamed to show Paul my fat BODY!!!!!!!!!!
Okay, see ya'lls later, i am starting to get higher and HIGHER!!!! EEEEEEE}}

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What a Week..

First of all, i would like to thank all of my guardian angels. The world famous psychic Sylvia Browne believes there are many that are around us at all times. I want to say thanks for helping me live through another Dex (TripleC) night on Tuesday and I hope they will do the same for me tonight. 

Only one day of this week has been worth mentioning at all. The rest have been full of disappointment. Today, I went to the eye doctor because i was damned determined that i was going to have Lasik surgery soon. So, Dr. Bronge Dilated my eyes. (I still can't see a fucking thing) He said it needs to be done within six months.. But it was all a waste of time.. the price 4, 000 dollars. (I tried) 

Last night moments of fury washed over me as I tryed to clean up this house, I cut myself with my knife just out of anger. And then, I did a STUPID thing. I weighed myself. I am sad, I am shocked. I am torn apart.. I weigh 127.5 pounds. I have NEVER been this fat since 2003. EVen then the highest i ever weighed was 135 pounds.. I don't know what has happened. It certanily is not like I am shoving cakes and pies and chips and cookies down my throat. I hardly ever eat. What a cruel fucking joke. 

On Monday. Paul put down his dog Atilla. The big nasty dog that i have been just HATED with all my being since i have been here. The dog had cancer everywhere. Every damn day it would shit all over the floor in just about every room, then it would vomit, So.. I did not go to vet.. but paul came home and layed in the bed and cryed like a baby.. I loved it. I love it when he cries. I could hold onto him forever. i could comfort him forever.. but to shit with that. 

I am sure that i have forgotten some things, but just off the subject. I need church in my life so much. I adore the choir and the organ, I even adore the repetative prayers of the Epispocal church..

Nevermind, on with Tuesday... So as I say, I took my usual Dex amount.  When I take Dex, I am not fucking around or making anything up, but i feel small areas of cool air which stay with me for a minute and then they disapper. As i walk down the hall, there is no draft, there is no heat or air on,, A cold draft follows me until i get into the bedroom and then its gone.  To me.. my guardian angels. 

There is no way to say this but the truth, once in a while when i am on Dex I hope so much for a sexual experience. (Laugh if you may) but i don't think that i can ever look at sex the same way again. If i am honest with myself and how incredibly intertwined Paul and I were, then really there is nothing dirty or nasty about "making love" to your partner. What I do with the nude modeling is nasty and dirty and shameful, but this.. I just it is so hard to find words for it. I was still able to trip when i closed my eyes, so not only could i not see, but i was in another world. we were together, he was there,   i could feel everything around 20 plus.. every touch anything.  well, i am glad no one reads this cause it was ecstacy.  in over five years.. never.. but this one night. the greatest night  i have ever had. I wish i could explain better. I wish the Dex i just took would make it happen again..  

But, if not.. it is not wrong, it is not scary, it really is two people becoming one.   melting into one another...

WEll.. i guess i will go have a snack.. what the hell can i have with my FAT 127 pound ASS!!! GOD, even yogurt is too much.. 

I found the only 30th b/d photos i have.

So, My 30th has come and gone. I have been 30 for about three months now. As you will see, we baked our own cake. It was really good.. seriously. We made a double decker strawberry cake,with icing in the middle. And, the best part was that the cake tasted "exactly" how my mom used to make it. (Yeah we started with Betty Crocker) but came up with our own creation.
I got some Heely's shoes. The ones with the wheels in the back, that was the coolest present. Theres a photo of me trying to skate on them. Actually, i've used them a lot these three months. They are fun to glide around in the grocery store with.




(so heres the cake)





(I'm blowing out the candles) duh! we only put three candles because we figured any more and the house would catch on fire... Ha ha.












(Heres just Paul and me and the cake) wow!




And here i am tryin not to crack my head open with my heelys shoes!


OKay, now back to reality, its october 5th, sydney is sick again, i have a headache, someone called me fat the other day, lots of bills.... stuff I'll mention in the next entry! besides being 30, just been the same ol shit, no different from 29. or 28 or 27 for that matter.

unhappy 30th birthday quiz!

TELL PEOPLE ABOUT YOURSELF!!   My 30! Quiz!

Basic About you!


Name:  Annemieke (Anna) Jeanette Patterson

Gender  :   Female

Height :   5.2

Eye Color :  dark Brown

Hair Color : BALD

Age : 30!!!!!

Birthday :  7-23-1976

what hand do you write with?::   Right handed

Piercings:  tongue, nose, vertical labret

Tattoos:  Seven tattoos!!  Two on my left leg, one on my right ankle, one on my back, one on my arm, two on each wrist.

Ring Size : 5

College:  Graduated in 2005 with a B.A in Journalism.


More About You:

Are you named after anyone? Yes, I am. Annemieke is a Dutch name. I am named after all the little girls from the Netherlands

Do you live in the moment?:;  Difficult question! I live for the future, and I do things which are very spontanious

Do you consider yourself tolerent to others?: No, I do not, however I can fake interest very well.

Do you have any secrets?: I hate to say this, but no I do not. I am rather boring.

Do you hate yourself?: Yes, I do. I have been my own enemy for a few decades.

Do you like your handwriting?: Yes, everyone can read it.

Do you have any bad habits?:  Smoking, drinking to much, I am sure there are a lot more

If you were another person, would you be friends with you?:   Difficult! It depends on the type of person who would be seeking "me" out.   Yes, I would be friends with myself.

Any regrets?:  Not being able to have a sexual relationship, Having to start opiates, not having a job, Things i never said to my parents. Also, having no friends or family.

Do you think life has been good so far?: Coming from someone who is about to enter her third decade, Honestly no, my life has not been very good.

Are you confident?: No, not a bit.

How long does it take you to shower?: 20 to 30 minutes

What color is your room?: One room is light blue and the other is just eggshell white

You want to attend college?: I have already been, but if i had to go back, perhaps UC Berkeley? but i am sure i will end up at some CRAP trade school!