"The Potpourri Diaries"

Punkie Pie has died too! AND A KALEDISCOPE OF WEBSITES

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http://www.real-talent.com/punkypie LINK NO LONGER WORKS!!!!!

 

Okay first things first,  that i cant believe  i feel good enough today to be writing here at one in the morning on pauls laptop..I really hate laptops, you know, im just not used to them AT ALL! Just not at all, they are a strange and foreign thing. Anyway, I just found out, now this is not a top priority in my sesspool of problems or anything, but I just found out that the NEW PORN that I was advertising and basically JUST JOINED IS OUT OF BUSINESS!! So, yes, are I am sure you are wondering, I GOT SCAMMED!! Yes, along with about 30 other women. So, that is why you happen to see the somewhat nasty photo of me sucking on a lollipop, because I am now not  nude anywhere on the net in like a um (condenced) package. AND YEAH IM PISSED I GOT SCAMMED!! So, for my MILLIONS OF LJ readers, i think its time for the GROSS little nudie pics.. because frankly I have no where else to put them!  Anyway, im actually tired and dont feel like doing this, but my point to this entry is of course KALIDESCOPE OF WEBSITES...... I am going to list the AT LEAST 25-30 websites that I can remember that i am on or that have something to do with me...... and the reason I am doing that is because.....last night i was MAD AT THE WORLD, because I figure,,,,,,, How is it possible to be on so many sites and literally for years....NOT MAKE ONE FRIEND.. but its possible......So, im going to list a few of the obvious here when they come to mind, but im getting tired and need to brush my teeth, i can of course finish the list later......... U know, its a desperate attempt that someone will come to my Desperate aid...... U know be my friend....WAHHHH.. cause I SURE AS HELL AM ON ENOUGH FUCKING WEBSITES!!!  SO, HERE WE GO.....!!!!
ONE--http://www.nami.org/Template.cfm?Section=Sign_In&template=/security/login.cfm This is the website for the national assosiation for the mentally ill.. nope havent helped me once!


http://www.rockyou.com/my_stuff.php?loginType=ryLogin&email=faceandmurdock%40yahoo.com--this is photosharing site

http://www.bzoink.com/~robochicky76    this is supposted to be a social network site.. not ONE FRIEND

http://www.nolongerlonely.com/view.php?profile=26938  this is my profile at a site called nolongerlonely.com its supposted to help people with mental illness find love.. NOT A SOUL!

http://www.patientslikeme.com/profile okay this one pisses me off the most its called patients like me where people are supposted to SUPPORT AND HELP EACH OTHER AND MAKE FRIENDS.. NOT A DAMN THING!

http://profiles.friendster.com/punkypie okay this is called friendster a social networking site. I got TWO count um two friends out of this one.

http://www.myyearbook.com/punkypie THIS IS ANOTHER SOCIAL NETWORKING SITE LIKE MYSPACE NO FRIENDS FROM IT!

http://www.mychurch.org/member/myhome.php ONE OF MY MOST DISAPPOINTING SOCIAL SITES ITS SUPPOSTED TO BE CHRISTIAN FOR CHRISTS SAKE!!

AND IM NOT DONE FOLKS< MANY MORE SITES TO GO BEFORE I SLEEP!

HERES MY FACEBOOK SITE--SOMEONE PLEASE COME JOIN ME SERIOSLY

Okay i cant get that to work just look under Annemieke J. Patterson and thats me.

Im on twitty too. and myspace.

 

"Nudie" Punky is dead, 'we can cry real tears now, but i have another link for ya

well seems as if the site, http://www.southern-charms3.com/punky/main.htm  (PUNKY THE ALTAR EGO FOR OVER TWO YEARS)is no more, even though you know it may have been a Crappy way to make a few extra bucks and an exuse to actually get my ex-boyfriend Paul to see me naked when he comes around once in a three month period!

but i must say there was a lot of work (yeah work)! involved in the 60 or so photo sets we did during four years. (most all were contained on my Southern charms site) Now, they are just meaningless work blowing in the winds of cyberspace. (Punky) worked really hard on the costume ideas, (she even had to make some (objectionable clothing purchases) and she worked really hard at her photo sessions (which for the last year have ONLY been in front of my ex-boyfriend! But because punky wasnt a hoe, southern charm she only got pictures when her ex came to town, so that didnt leave her with many new sets.. The requirement to be( punky, )was that I had to update two sets of photos a month AT LEAST NEW PHOTOS OR I WOULD GET DELETED WITH NO WARNIMG APPERATNLY) and since she only saw paul every few months she couldnt get enough photos and her 5 years of net came to a crashing end! taking with it, a little money, but mostly taking any sexual self esteem that i would ever have left, after what my ex and i have been through. SO< FOLKS!!!!, R.I. P, she was a member of many interent

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OH FOLKS, ACTUALLY MAN I LOOK LIKE A HUGE SLUT! EVEN THOUGH MOST OF YOU KNOW MY REAL PATHETIC SEX STATUS--I MEAN REAL PATHETIC, BUT I FORGOT IM ON ANOTHER ADULT SITE. ITS BEEN RIPPING ME OFF I THINK FOR ABOUT THREE YEARS!!!! DAMN.. WELL FOR ANY PUNKY FOLKS I GUESS YOU CAN GO SEE THE )OLD) OLD ME......AT http://www.photoconfessions.com/   MY MODEL IS "VIRGIN ROSE"  WELL WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT THAT.. HMMMM>

Was it and is it still embarrassing to be a nude model? and March 25 07 the story of my last shoot

 

 

Throughout this blog, you will most likely, if you look deep enough into it, run into several posts about my previous and on-going nude modeling. One, i would like to say that things have changed considerably on this subject since 2005-2006. Im not sure the reason that I really started it.... I didused to go over to a "photographers" house with my ex-boyfriend as a chaperone and I might get paid 50 dollars or so for a session. No sexual activity ever went on at any of these "pro-shoots"  nor did any sexual activity occur within the monogomy of (mine and my ex's seven year relationship) but thats another story altogheter.

Nowadays, the only (nude stuff) i do is when I come to visit my ex about every two months and I post the photos that he takes on an amateur site called Southern Charms. I dont ever go over to anyones house anymore, or have "pro" photo shoots. Im not sure again, why i started... but i do also have nude photos on flickr which some people are probably surprised and maybe a little shocked to find.... trust me.. i know im not very hot.. thats why im on Southern charms. most are the girls (well are regular looking) to say the least.

the reason i even thought to post this is because i saw a trackback from someone on netflix and i can imagine that he was probably surprised to find nude flickr photos. You do hear girls say this ALL THE TIME.. well i didnt have a father figure.. I didnt.. but oh well.. I dont have any parents that would be embarrassed by what i have done in the past, nor relatives so theres no danger there.

In 2005, for some reason i just was a exercise machine and i was a bit anorexic so i thought-hey why not. i look good. im really really skinny! I was.. plus i thought it might put a little bit of spice into my relationships basically non-existant sex life.. I dont know, thats a little bit of whats up with that..

GUYS go easy on me here on the comments. PLEASE.. im kinda in a fragile mental state at the moment!!! Thanks!! Peace!! Oh i sorta didnt answer my own question.. Yes and no.. its embarrassing, depending on who finds out.. but not so much, in other ways.. its hard to expalian!

BELOW IS A (NOT SO NAUGHTY PHOTO) TAKEN IN 2006

March 25, 07, the story of my last shoot.THIS IS A GOOD STORY GUYS

So, it was a lovely spring day and "Ivy Jeanette" was finally going on her first photos shoot since October 2006. She was going to work with "Savannah Skye" a tiny 100 pound photographer whom she had worked with once before.  Unfortunatly, "Ivy" still had to get a ride from (the evil nuclear bomb genius)  but even that she was determined would not mess up this day.
So, "Ivy" and "EnBG" drove for about an hour until we got to Emeryville, CA. Sadly, a rather bad hood which was very close to Oakland. It was also right near the ocean which made things rather chilly for a nude model, but my nipples would stand up, NO PROBLEM!
Anyway, we arrived at Savannah Skye's apartment, all i had with me was a red bath robe and some 1 dollar White rain hairspray. When Ivy and ENBG went inside we were both pretty shocked at the apartment, even though Savannah Skye was a great person, the place that she lived wasnt.  SS lived with another photographer  who had long greasy hair and was missing a few teeth, also his "wife" was living there. She was rather large, but thats about all we knew. THe apartment was only about two rooms. There was only one bed for three folks??? Another reason, it was extremely cluttered was that the floors the shelves  on the ceilings and basically everywhere were lined with Anime tapes and posters. There was a very sick cat on the (bed) She had an eye infection and she was also bleeding from the rear (the greasy haired guy) claimed she had had two miscarriages, he also claimed that the cat was near death. (I was pretty furious about that, wanting to call the Aspca or someone to get her)
In short, I wanted outta that cramped little cluttered place quick!  Luckily, i got my wish The greasy guy and Savannah Skye got into a rather cheesy (attempted souped up toyota celica)

So then, Ivy and ENBG followed them to some railroad tracks--Now these werent just any tracks--up above our heads was a maze of freeways (including the one that fell down in the tanker truck fire) 
When we got out of the car there was this unbelievable stinch.  It smelled about 20 times worse than my cats litter box--no surprise because it was a sewage treatment plant on the other side of the tracks. It was really odd because the greasy guy and Savannah Skye didnt even seem to notice. At the other end of the tracks was a car--not just any car (it was a car that had been stripped clean and then set on fire!)
By now, Ivy has major reserves about her nipples sticking out around here. Fortunatly, her savior would come pretty soon! While Savannah Skye was putting on Ivys makeup in the back of ENBG's car a cop pulled up. He was actually (a railroad authority cop)  with a K-9 in the back--meaning a massive barking german sheperd. He told Greasy Guy and ENBG that other cops had reported two suspious vechicles in the area. (He left) but SS kept doing Ivys makeup.
In about ten minutes--the cop came back. This time he got out of his car and precided to talk to greasy guy and enbg for about 20 minutes. Enbg. likes to babble on and on when he is nervous (which means any social situation) so, the cop told them that trespassing was 30 days in jail (no questions or execptions)  He also mentioned that a gang of hispanics had just started robbing anyone in the area in broad daylight.
HE said that gangs watched from the warehouses around the area and then jumped people for their clothes, shoes and money. (By now Ivy was very nervous and wanted to get the hell outta there)
So once the cop and greasy guy and Engb shut-up we got the fuck outta there)  (Bein raped isnt worth a free nude shoot, U THINK..
So, we ended up at another place called (albany bulb) by the locals and that is where the photos below come from!   I could tell a little more about it.. but naw.... Just check the photos out... its a weird ass place!!!

   

I made a short porn video..... Dear John.. it went way over my comfort limit

Dear John Denver, 

This is my second letter to you on livejournal.  It is now 2 am and I have just checked  my  face in the mirror. I have a red mouth from drinking Kool-Aid. (Its my new favorite drink)! Also, short pink hair that feels like a dead lawn.  And I have finally come down from  tonight's  Robitussin high. I have been on Robitussin for about two weeks now. Anyway, while I was high I helped Paul with his manly needs.  He received all the pleasure while I kissed him and listened to the screems from halloween 4 on TV. Tonight, its not my entire life that is the problem. I am focusing on this weekend. 

Boring life as normal on Saturday. Paul and me went to a massive halloween corn maze. I actually had a lot of fun. The maze was bigger than 32 football fields the guide said. It was Sunday that was different. It was one of those moments when you question who you are?? So, John I have been doing nude photography for over a year. I always just stand still and drop my clothes. (not really a big deal) right?  However, even though I had an idea of what I was getting myself into (AND WITHOUT PAY) !!! I must add. It was rough. I jumped from standing naked in front of a "FILM CAMERA" to sitting naked in front of a VIDEO CAMERA!

I knew the "video operator" so that was a good thing. However, I remember driving back from the shoot thinking, "I should be in church worshiping Jesus today, I should not be making a porn video"
My friend, John you can see how this revelation could cause an identity crisis. I have no clue when the 20 minute or so video will come out. I don't know what Stevenson (the video operator wants to do with it)  I don't know when I will get a copy. Basically the short video is of me masturbating until I reach orgasam. Here is an example of what I wore, I wore this skirt and a different top and different hair.. yeah..


 
So, I drank another Robitusson bottle and I did it. I masturbated while two camera men and paul looked on. So, my John I have now really become a person who i don't know. It takes balls to do what I did on sunday, but it takes even more balls to go to church and try to socialize! I mean A LOT! Part of me wants to stay here in this comfortable lifestyle. even though it is not good for me. I have a great deal of "dead  people guilt" See, John my parents treated me like I was back then the person that I am now? hope that makes sense. In short,  they gave me hell for being "a perfect goody goody child"  I went through some rough stuff, but i never once rebelled. Now at 30 as i seem to rebel against myself I keep thinking what if at 17 I was smoking pot, sippin cough syurp, doing "porn" videos, smoking cigarrettes, drinking, getting pierced and tattoed. I wish i had gotten it out of my system when normal people are supposted to.

I know, dear John.. what I write does not make much sense to me either.. THe last thing I have to show you is the photo of me STONED on robitussion still that sunday. I think i will remove the video clips...  A pathetic photo is worth a thousand words!


  HERES A COUPLE OF THE NASTY PORN PHOTOS!!



Sincerely,
 MEEEE

Nude photo shoot with a female photographer..2006

Yous An Ugly Bitch/Model Mayhem/NEW PHOTO!

Hi Everyone, And Hell Yeah, I am one UGLY and Crazy BITCH!! MOstly, UGLY, well CRAZY TOO, 

Anyways, Here are three results from the shoot on Sunday September 16. These nude shoots are certainly not glamourous. I least i worked with a women this time. She was working out of an old wearhouse in San Jose. The place was creepy! It was only a two hour shoot, AND I DIDN"T GET PAID! I just wanted to do the photographer a favor, you know young kid just starting out. yeah a 28 year old young kid--fuck? anyway, during my non-paying two hours i was nude the entire time.

i had to HOLD In my stomach for two hours. Then, i got seashells glued to me head?? and some makeup that made me look like a mermaid?? she also gave me a phonebook and told me to stand there naked and just rip out the pages. I still can't get that shell glue off of my bald head. I sorta had a good time (considering it was fo   THIS IS CALLED MERMAID NUMBER ONE charity) the photographers charity! I say that it was bullSHIT, because this will be the only shoot i end up doing for another six months.
thing that works out for you, but you never get chosen. (i don't know, its hard to explain) being U                                                                          

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Sex that i forgot because i was high-2006

Forbidden Sex!

Something happened last night that was very confusing. It will probably be hard for anyone to understand me being ashamed. Okay, this morning my boyfriend (the problem guy) asked me if I wanted any extra morphine because of what happened last night. I looked at him like, "uh What would i need extra morphine for" So he says don't you remember anything about last night? I didn't. because I drank way to much and after what happened I blacked out. I've never blacked out before, this has never happened to me,

So, he said something like it was the greatest sex he'd ever had. Immediatly i was embarrased, and i was like WHAT?? See, first of all our sex life has basically been non-existant. I know that some other women go through a dry spell in their sex life when they are on strong medications. But, ours hasn't been a dry spell, more like a severe drought. ALso, I am not able to have intercourse because of the vaginal condition that i have. It has really hurt me, that i can't perform.. sex is a big part of a relationship. Anyway, before i had the vaginal condition our sex life wasn't too good either.. I just haven't ever really been interested. I could totally do with out sex forever, but i know its very important for a man. Also there is something inside of me that I know is very ashamed of sex itself. I don't know exactly where it comes from.

Possibly, it could stem from the way my parents handled "sex" durning my childhood. It was basically an avoided, taboo subject. So when i started experimenting at a young age with a two girls, my parents were mortified. I ended up feeling like a very bad person. and i still feel that way. It might explain why last night after it was over, I started crying and screaming that my parents had seen us from heaven and now they hated me because i had just done a dirty thing.. enjoy sex.. even though the alchohol made me. As far as what my b/f said last night I let everything come out. Of course i was drunk and i kinda wish i remember. I won't get into details.. but sex is something thats supposted to be a release for both partners.. In the five years we have been together.. lets say I have never "released"

So, it was a really big deal. BUt, i still feel very ashamed about it, I mean i should feel happy, but i don't. I kinda know now that the only way for that to happen is with alcholol. It will never happen naturally. Plus, and this has been the problem since the beginning, I still want to pretend last night didn't happen. What it means to me is that i actually let go after 5 years, right around the time that paul is wanted to break up with me. I just could not for five years give him my entire heart, because i was sure of a break up.. and i was correct. so, i feel so bad that he kinda has my heart. because of the alchohol breaking up will be even harder.. I still know, all our problems in the past have been because of the medication I take.. I am on klonopin, seroquel, wellbutrin, cymbalta, and morphine. The only one without sexual side effects is wellbutrin. And also from the reasons that i mentioned above. What if he makes fun of me? what if its funny? all i feel is stupid and that should not be the case, i also feel really dirty and wrong.. TOO BAD I GUESS!!!!

Scary Tramatic sexual situation-2006

This entry was something that happened that was very tramatic for me..I havent dealt with it.. but it still scares me when i think about it, even though it was over two years ago!!!

WAS FORCED TO WATCH TWO STRANGERS HAVE A ONE NIGHT STAND

DEAR TAMMY

Hi everybody! I suppose i will just get down to it! On monday, I was having one of the worst nights of my life. My boyfriend asked me again if I wanted to break up. This particular fight started because of something my accountant said. So anyway, I couldn't believe this was happening to me again! Now, I am very very shy and i am very very anxious. It takes a LOT of pain to make me actually get up and leave the house. so, amazingly. I did decide to leave, mostly because i kept thinking about the tylenol bottle in the kitchen and how bad i wanted to swallow them all. so i packed a little bit of junk and checked into a holiday inn which is right down the street. This was around 9:30 Pm.


However before i went to the hotel, I stopped by the gym where my only "acquantance worked" Her name is tammy.(I might have mentioned her before). Fortunately, she said she would come to my hotel room and help me out. she would Try to make me feel better, and even spend the night Well, i thought that was cool. i really needed to be cheered up! But when Tammy got there i was crying and instead of consoling me she asked if we could go to a bar down the street.' and I didn't say NO.. i didn't seem to know how.. from here it just got worse. She wa s saying.. yeah lets go party, well get us some weed, you know hang out.. she also advised me that if i ever felt unconfortable during the night we would leave the bar. What follows is the saddest story of someone being taken advantage of in their time of need. Meaning Miss 40-year old Nasty human, Tammy took me for a fool.! I have actually never been to a real bar and just sat there...I think its fucking boring as hell. BUT folks thought this was funny and they wanted to see how i would take a few shots of tequilla, cause i had never done it. Anyway, guess who did not have a dime to pay for this night of UM merriment. Yes, Tammy put the bar tab on my credit card saying she would pay me back when she got paid..

The skank has never talked to me since, no money and she stole my favorite shirt, but i figured after a naked woman wears it, I don't want it back, ya know. So, the night went on and i got pretty drunk, but i was in control of myself and i knew what i was doing (basically) Miss Tammy on the other hand. did not, Now, she wanted a quick fuck (as she calls it) with a 25 year old kid... she is 40. that she met in the bar.. Now, i did not know this. Now, that i know everything and realize everything and some of the trauma has passed, I am fucking in shock. The 25 year old boy's name was "heath".. So Tammy asks if "Heath" had a girlfriend. Heath, who was totally smashed, said he was at the bar because of girlfriend troubles. Now, I reckon enough time has passed that little "Heath" and his girl have probably patched things up. The thing that sickenes me is, They used no protection. Tammy sleeps around ALWAYS! She could have given Heath any number of STD'S. So, will Heath tell his g/f that he had a one night stand with a 40-year old pathetic nasty bitch.. I doubt it. So, this kids g/f could now have any number of STD's without even knowing it... THAT IS FUCKED.


Okay, to continue,So, when Tammy gets in her beaten up car and starts to drive COMPLETLY DRUNK.. She had the guy Heath in the back seat.. Well, first of all, i should have said.. No, this my hotel room, YOU WILL NOT BRING STRANGE DRUNK GUYS TO IT... But no.. i said nothing. so we get back to my room, safely, thank God. and Tammy starts taking her clothes off on the other bed! Again I say nothing. So, yes her and this strange kid did have a one night stand RIGHT in front of me. God i have never been so mortifed in my life!! Fortuanely, little heath left, I was terrified.. I was in a hotel with this pathetic drug addict with TRACK MARKS who had just done this to me.. even though i didn't speak up.. it wasn't right.. SO, finally i pretended i was going to get a soda and I checked out of the room and came home.. Leaving the nasty diseased hoe snoring in the hotel room WHICH I PAID 115.00 DOLLARS FOR!! I left her pathetic self lying there and left at around 3 am. SO, what did i lose here.. well, for one I have lost my trust of people even more. It seems to me, that it is impossible to find someone who will just comfort you when you think all may be lost.... NOT HAVE SEX in front of you. ALso, to be honest I was tramatized. It may sound babeish.. but i was very sexually tramatized. Heath, kept staring at me, wanting me to get in on it too. BTW I have never seen any one else have sex... EVER.. NOT LIVE. but the worst thing she did was take my trust in anyone. when i got home, There was still tension between Paul and me,, but all i wanted was to be held and just to forget about what a fool had just been made of me.. thats another thing--I don't want to break up with him.. when he is able he is so comforting. I would miss that soo much. Well, folks is that the worst case of being fucked with or what? You know i watch sex and the city a lot.. and i see all the one night stands. and i think.. that is never possible... OH BUT IT IS, OH NAIVE ANNA. oh but it is..

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SIgh, no good!

Well, took the little kitties to the vet yesterday. I have to take them and then H.A.L.O pays for their vet bills. They both have a nasty worm so they have medication for that. And they are taking an antibiotic for colds. I went ahead and named them. Madeline and Mackenzie. Probably their new owners will name them something like midnight or spot... HMMM?


Also, the photo shoot I had WEd was a real huge bust. I should have expected it to be. THe guy came over to the house. it just didn't work. Afterwards, he asked me my opinion on the photos and i told him the truth (which I probably shouldn't have) but I was real disappointed and i had just payed 100 bucks for my hair.

oh yeah speaking of wasted money, Paul and i got into another HUGE fight at the cheap store this weekend. He called me a freeloader.. COOL! I guess he doesn't care about depression anymore.. He was pretty rough on me.. Kicked me hard when i was already down from the disappointing photo shoot.. So, I went in the shed and got drunk.. I drank 6 mikes lemonades in about 30 minutes. I couldn't stand at all.. I barfed. i had a hang-over.. BUt worse i mumbled all kinds of things.. Things about mom, things about how i wish i was dead.. just on and on. Paul didn't seem to care much..

Saw, tammy at the gym yesterday. i made the effort to talk to her...

I am gonna insert a few of the so called "good photos" there are only a few...

Nude photo shoot with me and my ex-boyfriend.

PLEASE I BEG FOR AN OPINION!!!

Another 2005 modeling shoot... These photos are me and my ex-boyfriend. I wanted an opinion on how good they were..

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i AM SO DESPERATE FOR COMMENTS. OKAY, HOW BOUT YOU GUYS COMMENT ON "IS THIS REALLY GROSS?" OR JUST LIKE REALLY PATHETIC?. OR LIKE MY BOYFRIEND IS SO FAT YOU ARE GONNA BARF?  JUST ANYTHING.. i CAN'T GET ANYONE TO COMMENT AND I DON'T KNOW HOW!DO I SHOCK THEM? (BY THE WAY THESE TWO PICS HAVE BEEN BANNED FROM MY MODELING SITE, THEY WERE TOO RACY... YEAH.) OH, I HAVE A PIC OF US ACTUALLY HAVING SEX, (WHICH RARELY HAPPENS).... HOW BOUT THAT?  SHOULD INSERT SEXY STORY?.. HERE? i AM WORKING ON ONE....

PLEASE, I BEG OF THE STRANGERS WHO DON'T READ MY JOURNAL.. COMMENT! SAY SOMETHING.. IF ARE REPULSED GREAT.. JUST COMMENT! WHAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.S.

OH AND I BOUGHT MYSELF A TRAMPOLINE THIS WEEKEND. FROM WAL-MART, VERY COOL

OKAY, LETS GET THOSE OPINIONS COMIN!!!!

OH, AND I NEED, ONE OF THOSE LITTLE TICKERS THAT ARE ON COOL WEBSITES. TO COUNT DOWN THE HOURS, MINUTES AND SHIT BEFORE I GO HOME TO THE GHETTO FOR GRADUATION!!

SO FAR ITS.. 9 DAYS AND COUNTING!

Former (Creepy) nude modeling offer

 

Some Bondage thing???

  THESE ARE SOME BONDAGE PHOTOS THAT PAUL TOOK OF ME WHEN WE WENT ON A WEEKEND TRIP

 

UnFortunatley, I missed a "normal nude" photo session scheduled for this weekend because I got VERY ill. So, today I got another "referral" from OMP "One Model place" this means a photographer would like to work with you.. Check this out!!! This is the photographers inital e-mail to me, here is my e-mail and his response. HE wants me to look like this! BUT EVEN WORSE

THIS is his idea, 
1. fetishy (clothed) shoot in this old abandoned and gutted hotel in berkeley. Its a really cool spot and should make for some spectacular photos.

I Sent him a response and here is his answer! Actual e-mail!

actually, fetish as in bondage.  Nothing extreme, unless i can learn
how to tie fancy knots in the next few days, just some handcuffs.
maybe a blindfold and a gag, stuff like that.

D.

So, this guy wants me to look like the woman above in an old abandoned wearhouse in berekely? (OR STUFF LIKE THAT AS SAYS) OKAY, I AM TOTALLY CREEPED OUT!!

HMM< What do you guys think about this VERY different and CREEPy modeling proposel???