Well, folks you can actually go take a look at "Poor Punky's" altar ego "Virgin Rose" at www.photoconfessions.comYou know they have been ripping me off for years! I just know it! I joined them way before I charmed Southern Charms and Ive Never seen a dime! but you can see me for 6 dollars...
Well folks here I am just a sittin.. and chillin.. in the my mom's graveyard around this September (because that was the last time Paul was here) and I only usually go when hes here, dont know why because the grave is only about 20 minutes away. I reckon im running out of things, or i never really did have anything else that i havent already said to my mom.
I feel that i must represent this page from a quote from JOHN DENVER, "I KNOW THAT THIS LIFE IS WORTH LIVIN, YES I DO, BUT SOMETIMES IT JUST ISNT FAIR" Nope, its not fair, and this picture isnt really "fair" Its usually supposted to be the the 45-99 year old woman whos looking down at her moms grave, not a 22-year old girl......NOW 32 of course, but you get the idea!! maybe, perhaps you do!
anyway here I am adusting the plastic flowers that Paul and I put on the grave last year around the anniversary of her death. I hadnt been to the graveyard for almost a year, so I was totally shocked that our one year old flowers were rotting and hadnt been touched at all. I was very sad, this most likely means that no one else had been by in over a year, and I think that really sucks! Her friends should at least come to visit, even though it has been 8 years.
You know I think a lot about what would happen if I went to heaven and I saw my mom now. I think it would be reallly scary and odd. I mean i havent seen her in 9 years! Imagine not seeing your parents for that long. Basically nothing has changed for me (job wise) or residence wise, i did graduate from college in 2005 and she missed that, but even though things are pretty much the same as they were 9 years ago, Im not the same as i was, im a totally different person. and i know that shes a totally different pereon from the woman who died. the woman that I knew as my mother from ages 1-22, shes not there anymore, i know she has changed. So anyway, its a weird thing to think about.
I was gonna put another pic, its a closeup of the symbol on moms grave, apparently the graveyard lets you choose little symbols that you want on the persons grave, like a baseball, for a sports fan, a cross for a religious person, an airplane for someone who loved flying... Hers was picked out by my uncle, its an angel woman putting a necklace on a little girl. i wonder if it didnt start out to mean anything, or it just evolved into meaning something, but i kinda see in it my mom keeping the cross the she gave me--which I always wear--around my neck... I dont know....
YOUR SO-CALLED LIFE GIRL












My YOU TUBE COMMENT.
SONG OF MY GREATEST COMFORT
PROMISE TO TRY,
Little girl don't you forget her face
Laughing away your tears
When she was the one who felt all the pain
Little girl never forget her eyes
Keep them alive inside
I promise to try -- it's not the same
Keep your head held high -- ride like the wind
Never look behind, life isn't fair
That's what you said, so I try not to care
Little girl don't run away so fast
I think you forgot to kiss -- kiss her goodbye
Will she see me cry when I stumble and fall
Does she hear my voice in the night when I call
Wipe away all your tears, it's gonna be all right
I fought to be so strong, I guess you knew
I was afraid you'd go away, too
Little girl you've got to forget the past
And learn to forgive me
I promise to try -- but it feels like a lie
Don't let memory play games with your mind
She's a faded smile frozen in time
I'm still hanging on -- but I'm doing it wrong
Can't kiss her goodbye -- but I promise to try.
Come and visit my erotic diary at Photoconfessions