This womans so-called life

tooth terror!

 so yes folks this is my wisdom tooth. and below it is a scene from the movie SAW 3D where the guy had to use pliers to yank out his teeth. anyway if anybody cares i mentioned in my last post that my tooth had broken off or a filing had fallen out when i was eating some cereal. and also i will find out if i have a brain tumor on Tuesday. yep. anyway, i must have some seriously big balls or ive grown a pair because whenever i go to the dentist and i think its just gonna be for a filing or a crown its always something much worse. in august it was a root canal. and on thursday it was a fucking extraction.  Ive never had any teeth pulled in my life, i have all my wisdom teeth. well i am now  missing one. the dentist said the tooth that broke was a wisdom tooth and there just werent many options short of pulling it out that he saw would work. he did suggest that since i have a huge anxiety about dentists that i be referred to an oral surgeon to put me to sleep. but i said with my huge balls no i just want to get it done. so it was a nightmare they tried to give me gas (which ive never had before) and i was terrified of it (the gas) because ive seen TV shows where people just go insane on the stuff. but they just said no the gas will help you relax, so they put it over my nose but it didnt do shit. they kept the gas on the entire time. and ive never known anyone in my life getting a tooth yanked out while they are wide awake. i mean he gave me a bunch of novicane and then he took out his pliers. seriously pliers. i thought it would just gush blood, i had no idea. so he losened the tooth with the pliers for about ten minutes. i mean he was pulling on that thing. i mean really pulling the tooth with the pliers. and finally it came out. he gave me the tooth which is disgusting. its got a massive cavity in it and caked on blood. it bled for about 2 hours afterwards probably. i used up about 6 or 7 gauzes. and its only been three days so it still hurts. luckily i have vicoden. i just keep picturing someone tying me up and pulling out my teeth with pliers without the novicane. so that was my tooth terror!

all thats wrong and a nude pic!

Okay this is INSANE. i am  officially the least popular person on the internet. i checked my stats and it showed ONE person has visited my page in the past month!!!! i dont understand here is a naked picture of a 34-year-old woman. you can totally slam me. tell me i look old or like an anorexic crack whore or something. oh maybe say, hey for a 34-year-old she isnt that bad.... main thing im not fat after two years of laying in bed and not working out.. unlike some fat asses i know mainly chris carlson... since he totally went back on his word and has not contacted me whatsever. then he is a fat ass and im skinny.... welll since this is my first update in a long time. Paul got me a laptop for christmas.. hey pretty cool. now im back on the net again. finding out i was never popular just like i knew anyway... and on new years.. just to top of everything,, because things have been pretty bad and pretty serious and in about three days im gonna get the results of the MRI i had last wednesday which costs 900 bucks on my credit card. so yeah im about to see if i am going to die a horribly painful death from a brain tumor just like my mom did. am i scared? hell yeah! i am terrified, but nobody cares. and a shout out to my WONDERFUL family... i might have cancer douchebags. but whaT I WAS SAYing is on new years to top everything off my god damn tooth fell out when i was eating some frosted mini-wheats.. actually it was a filling but it feels like my tooth. so that was just the last straw. probably have to have a crown,. more money. and i havent mentioned the other medical problem i have yet.

oh did i mention chris is a fat ass... just wanted to make sure. so now im in a deep depression, my baby georgie who is 16 years old had all but three teeth pulled out because hes mouth was horribly infected. we had that done over the holidays. so i now have a toothless cat! great!bless his heart and that bill was 500 bucks. but paul paid for it. so if i dont have a brain tumor the next thing thats wrong with me is i have a large cyst under my chin. i had an ultrasound done on that not too long ago. the doctor read the ultrasound and said i need to go to a specialist to have a NEEDLE BIOPSY done of it!!! great.. more money.. and folks or the invisable fuck who reads this., i pay 1,000 dollars a month for insurance!!! and i cant use it when im in dire need because they could cancel me. this comes out of a disabled naked womans pocket. so anyway this cyst could be cancer also.. probabaly around 700 bucks. now plus the new dental bill that will probably be over a thousand for a new crown.. so i have this biopsy to look forward to.. this has just been a banner few months for me. i mean it just keeps piling on and piling on. and i huge thing that had a lot of meaning to me happened on christmas eve. i was desperate for a church service to go to, so it just so happened that st. albans the little episcopal church down the street was having a service at 11pm. now we never go to church but we did on last easter and the minister just out of the blue singled me out and asked me if i would go have coffee with him??? wierd???? well i had a migrane headache on the day he was supposted to come over so it never worked out.. but then we were out for a walk and we ran into him on the street . he said the same thing, i want to meet with you. do you need prayer? i'll help you? you know like some divine intervention was going on... the fool knew me i mean i have three huge 12 gauge piercings in my face im hard to forget and im bald!  but on christmas eve this same guy absoltuely DID NOT remember me at all. he just shook my hand and said merry chrismas just like he did with everyone else. I was SHOCKED. he asked me out for COFFEE. okay?? its like the devil is down on me. it really shook me up

well anyway we have done NOTHING in the past months, no ghost hunting no anything, because ive been so sick. now i dont know what im gonna do since i have my own computer and im not popular on the web.. what do you do with that??? and the way i feel now chris carlson i hope the chair that your sitting in breaks, because your so fat. ha ha. oh and you can die. like i might... cause i might have inoperable brain cancer!!! yeah.. GO INOPERABLE BRAIN TUMOR!!!   what do to? online i wish i didnt have my own computer geez. well all i can say is god please help with all thes medical things and chris i wouldnt hate you if you had kept your word. but you didnt, just like everybody else in my life. oh and you know in that little picture in the corner i was about 140 pounds.. now im about 95 pounds.