Well, folks you can actually go take a look at "Poor Punky's" altar ego "Virgin Rose" at www.photoconfessions.comYou know they have been ripping me off for years! I just know it! I joined them way before I charmed Southern Charms and Ive Never seen a dime! but you can see me for 6 dollars...
Well folks here I am just a sittin.. and chillin.. in the my mom's graveyard around this September (because that was the last time Paul was here) and I only usually go when hes here, dont know why because the grave is only about 20 minutes away. I reckon im running out of things, or i never really did have anything else that i havent already said to my mom.
I feel that i must represent this page from a quote from JOHN DENVER, "I KNOW THAT THIS LIFE IS WORTH LIVIN, YES I DO, BUT SOMETIMES IT JUST ISNT FAIR" Nope, its not fair, and this picture isnt really "fair" Its usually supposted to be the the 45-99 year old woman whos looking down at her moms grave, not a 22-year old girl......NOW 32 of course, but you get the idea!! maybe, perhaps you do!
anyway here I am adusting the plastic flowers that Paul and I put on the grave last year around the anniversary of her death. I hadnt been to the graveyard for almost a year, so I was totally shocked that our one year old flowers were rotting and hadnt been touched at all. I was very sad, this most likely means that no one else had been by in over a year, and I think that really sucks! Her friends should at least come to visit, even though it has been 8 years.
You know I think a lot about what would happen if I went to heaven and I saw my mom now. I think it would be reallly scary and odd. I mean i havent seen her in 9 years! Imagine not seeing your parents for that long. Basically nothing has changed for me (job wise) or residence wise, i did graduate from college in 2005 and she missed that, but even though things are pretty much the same as they were 9 years ago, Im not the same as i was, im a totally different person. and i know that shes a totally different pereon from the woman who died. the woman that I knew as my mother from ages 1-22, shes not there anymore, i know she has changed. So anyway, its a weird thing to think about.
I was gonna put another pic, its a closeup of the symbol on moms grave, apparently the graveyard lets you choose little symbols that you want on the persons grave, like a baseball, for a sports fan, a cross for a religious person, an airplane for someone who loved flying... Hers was picked out by my uncle, its an angel woman putting a necklace on a little girl. i wonder if it didnt start out to mean anything, or it just evolved into meaning something, but i kinda see in it my mom keeping the cross the she gave me--which I always wear--around my neck... I dont know....
YOUR SO-CALLED LIFE GIRL
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